I believe that everybody has known it for a while, that this blog has its inconsistency; the analysis on main direction of the blog has been crisscrossed by the emotional post beneath its writing. Nevertheless, it's my blog, so well, you know then...
It seems after a week holiday, I still couldn't really mustered up some time, just to update the blog post. But I really wanted to admit somehow, that these few week is just tough for me, and everybody involved. I just couldn't let it past by me. It might be the first for me, but it is still tough, and I ought to solve the problems A.S.A.P. However, little things changed ever since its inception.
At this moment, I still listening a song that really suit my mood the most; Marina & the Diamonds - Primadonna. It was not the lyrics that I want to studied through, but the music that follows together with the compose, the melody, the instruments that created the beautiful arrangement of the music. I love to listen to music not because of the lyrics, but the song itself. Weird, right.
I think my mind now at ease, even a little, but still vulnerable. It's my first; to be honest, to have such a feeling that hurt, really. Maybe I should take a nap now. But before that, let me introduce you the song that accompany me during these times.
Marina & The Diamonds - Primadonna
Primadonna girl, yeah
All I ever wanted was the world
I can't help that I need it all
The primadonna life, the rise and fall
You say that I'm kinda difficult
But it's always someone else's fault
Got you wrapped around my finger, babe
You can count on me to misbehave
Primadonna girl,
Would you do anything for me?
Buy a big diamond ring for me?
Would you get down on your knees for me?
Pop the pretty question right now baby
Beauty queen of the silver screen
Living life like I'm in a dream
I know I've got a big ego
I really don't know why it's such a big deal, though
I'm sad to the core, core, core
Everything is a chore, chore, chore
When you give I want more, more, more
I wanna be adored
(1st Chorus)
Cause I'm a primadonna girl, yeah
All I ever wanted was the world
I can't help that I need it all
The primadonna life, the rise and fall
You say that I'm kinda difficult
But it's always someone else's fault
Got you wrapped around my finger, babe
You can count on me to misbehave
Primadonna girl
Fill the void up with Celluloid
Take a picture, I'm with the boys
Get what I want cause I asked for it
Not because I'm really that deserving of it
I'm living life like I'm in a play
In the limelight I want to stay
I know I've got a big ego
I really don't know why it's such a big deal, though
Going up, going down, down, down
Anything for the crown, crown, crown
With the lights dimming down, down, down
I spin around
(2nd Chorus)
Cause I'm a primadonna girl, yeah
All I ever wanted was the world
I can't help that I need it all
The primadonna life, the rise and fall
You say that I'm kinda difficult
But it's always someone else's fault
Got you wrapped around my finger, babe
You can count on me to misbehave
Cause I'm a primadonna girl, yeah
All I ever wanted was the world
I can't help that I need it all
The primadonna life, the rise and fall
You say that I'm kinda difficult
But it's always someone else's fault
Got you wrapped around my finger, babe
You can count on me to misbehave
Primadonna girl
[p/s: I promise that I will return with better post than this. Till then, have a feel good time.]
